I had cancer but that was nine years ago however so much time having passed under troubled waters, I still carry the scars. Scars that will remain till my very end of life, which does not seem to end!! Scars such as no air or food passage - making eating or drinking orally impossible and then breathing through the "Hole" in my throat. Using a voice self created. For all reasons,I should not be alive and here I am not just alive but look hale and hearty -I have done all I ever wanted in life and havent got anything to left to see and have no regrets about life at all. Even as far as the cancer is concerned - its not a question of why me? The answer youl be simple - why not you? To live out what is left of your life - one has to cope up with living and reliving the trauma every day. Seeing the scars I have got everyday. my loss of voice and eating powers every moment of the day, breathing - well just about everything. I have started this blog in earnest from today - the 25th.of March 2009 and its on a lighter note of a very serious issue. So - your opinions do matter.